And that is perfectly okay.
There was a time when blogging consumed me. When I was using it as a tool to share my cancer journey with family and friends, it was a source of practicality and healing. It was really easy for me to get the word out about things that were going on. I was also able to express frustrations, love, worry, and joy in a way that was very therapeutic for my soul.
When I started running out of cancer related items to write about, I came up with a few things that I could write about on a regular basis...Tuesday Traditions, Thankful Thursdays, and my I Believe posts. Those were all wonderful things for me to write about and I love that I now have all of those thoughts and feelings available for my posterity to read.
However, there is a dark side to blogging that you may not know about. At times, I would be so consumed with blogging that I would push more important things aside. I would get agitated if I felt like there was too much time in between posts. And sometimes, as often happens with social media, I would let the lack of followers and comments or the content of comments eat away at my happiness.
W h a t w a s I t h i n k i n g ?
More recently, as I have been researching how to become a published author, I have found myself getting sucked into the social media trap again. On numerous occasions I have read the words, "must be very active on social media", "must have at least 20-50,000 hits a day", etc., etc., etc. This left me feeling completely hopeless. I am lucky to get 20 hits a day...120 if it's a really good day. That number does not look impressive to a publisher. I consider myself an "active" social media user, which honestly, at times I hate.
This has led me to the Great Experiment.
About a week or so ago, I set a social media goal. I decided that I would only allow myself to look at my Instagram account ONCE A DAY- not every time I found myself with a few minutes of downtime, just once a day when I post my #100happydays post. I also decided that I was going to go back to my goal of only checking Facebook if I receive an email telling me of a message or notification, or if I have something I need to notify people of.
So far, I have been at it a week and can I be completely honest with you?
I have been amazed with how much time I suddenly freed up in my busy schedule. A few minutes here and there really add up in the course of a day. But there has been something much more beautiful and amazing that has happened.
I HAVEN'T MISSED IT.
Not at all. I haven't missed the agitation, depressing feelings, or jealousy that would sometimes rear its ugly head. I haven't missed looking down at my phone instead of looking at the world around me. You know what else I haven't missed? I haven't missed a single, important message. Somehow people have still been able to get in touch with me, even though I am not looking at Facebook a dozen times a day to make sure I don't have a message waiting for me. It's a miracle.
Social media definitely has a place in our lives. There are many positive things that have happened as a result of having social media tools. I am not willing to give up on social media entirely because I love using it as a tool to stay in touch with far away family and friends, to support fundraisers, and to share my testimony of the Savior.
But I will continue with my great experiment and whatever that means for me in the publishing world, or whatever details I miss from not reading about everyone's lives, I'm okay with that. The peace that has come into my life as a result from this experience is just the tip of the iceberg for me.
I can't wait to see where this experiment will take me.