Let's start with the bad news and get it out of the way.
Publishing company number one said thanks, but no thanks.
I have to say, I really was not surprised when I received that email. I knew that the odds of having it picked up in the first go-around were very, very slim. Still, it stung a little and I spent some time in the land of hopelessness. I went back and forth a little bit. Is this something I really want/need to put precious time and effort into? Am I just kidding myself in thinking that someone will actually want to publish it? What makes me different than any other survivor out there who has penned their thoughts about their journey with the disease?
I also had the thought that maybe everyone who has read the book was just being nice when they said that it was a good book. I know that there are many things that need to be fixed and I am now in the process of yet another revision. It hasn't been the first and it certainly won't be the last. But just maybe it's not something that a lot of people would want to take the time to read.
I didn't stay in that thought process for long, however. I talked with Mark and my mom about it, and now I am ready to start the next round. I am going through the book, chapter by chapter and really getting down to the nitty gritty. Is it too wordy? Does this experience really pertain to the rest of the book? Lots and lots of details to look at. It's going to take some time to fit it into my busy schedule, but I am not ready to give up on it yet.
So I guess the good news is, it is not over yet. The book is still there, it just needs a little refining. After this next revision, I will send it off to another company and another and another until I find the right fit.
I have to thank my friend, Jessica, for sending me a quote a little while back that helped me to find my way out of the land of hopelessness and gave me the will to forge ahead.