I take you back to late August 2011. I had just been diagnosed with Breast Cancer and I was floundering in a sea of fear, confusion, and depression. I was right in the middle of a terrible waiting game as we waited for test results which would lead us to knowing what stage of cancer I had, which would then lead to treatment options.
I was scared out of my mind.
I had a hard time sleeping during that particular time of my life and I remember one morning, I was tired of tossing and turning, so I decided to get out of bed and go read my scriptures in the family room. I gathered my blanket and my scriptures and laid down on the floor next to my sweet dog, Mei Mei.
I tried picking up the scriptures and reading them, but I just could not get my mind to shift away from fear and focus on what I was reading. I was playing a terrible "What If" game in my mind and it was consuming my every thought. Since music is something that has always been able to calm me down in times of stress, I decided to put on my headphones and see if I could will my brain to be silent so that I could get some rest.
I felt a little better after a few songs from my "Sunday Playlist" and had just about drifted off to sleep when this song started playing.
In my sleepy state of mind, the pounding fearful thoughts were finally silenced and I was able to just focus on the words of this beautiful hymn. The tears started rolling down my cheeks, followed by heaving sobs, as I was finally able to release some of the fear and anxiety I had been feeling. I buried my face into Mei Mei's soft fur and just let the tears flow. It was a very healing and spiritual moment for me that is etched into my brain forever.
If you are experiencing a time of fear, uncertainty, depression, confusion, or anything else that is robbing you of happiness, I hope that this song will be the gateway for a great healing moment for you as well.
Sending all of my love and best wishes on this Sabbath Day of rest.
Be Still My Soul
Be Still My Soul,
I am loving my second chance at life.
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